Life Is't about Finding Yourself

本文不是说明文；但是说明了昨晚跑步时想到的一些东西。

 

Language is probably the most important invention by human beings, and a critical factor in their survival and evolution.  With messages communicated by the language, humans can avoid past mistakes and progress more rapidly from “the giant’s shoulders”. 

In general human relationships, the continuity of communication is the determining factor.  We are able to talk to our family in depth, because we have been going through the major, if not whole, stages of life together, and thus this continuity is maintained, and more time is save in deepening the conversation every time we talk.  For a “long-time-no-see” friend, time is spent on “catching up”, because every continuous conversation requires the continuity of communication.

By looking for a partner for life, we create a chance for another continuity – one that starts late, but could last longer than the one we have with our parents.  And this continuity is tougher to build and may require a life long time to adapt and maintain.

But everything is not predictable; exceptional cases exist too.  That is when we see eye to eye to a person, sometimes but not always at first sight.  We may not like them in the beginning, but gradually we find that a continuity for facilitating the communication is required – not for history that has passed, but for the future that is yet to ripe.  We may have the same ipod, in which we share 60% of the singers; we may speak a foreign language with the same accent; we may be dedicated to the same cause; we must have differences but we definitely admire each other.  Then, the need of construction of the continuity is revealed.

 

归根到底… Will head back to Shanghai for xmas this year.

今天被big boss拉去元朗做一个潜在的Due D，结果听了一大通讲述美国人自私、门槛太精的抱怨，有一种很奇怪的感觉，好像“成也萧何，败也萧何”，可爱的美国人和不可爱的美国人，其可爱度的差别，像正态分布的两个极端……而我也不知道如何评价他们。自己常常被first sight列为鬼佬，或准鬼佬，可能也挺悲哀。

下午告别了一个同事，和大老板两人上深圳参加招标会。路上走着赶车的时候，从包里拿出东西，带出的太阳眼镜袋掉在地上。还是大老板眼尖，看到了，叫我捡起来。

不知道为什么，突然想起那次在上海，秋冬天的样子，和老爸逛七宝老街，正和他说这话，突然老爸抓住一个尝试从我口袋偷东西的手，原来是个新疆人……

 

晚上收到Shane的信，还是决定不去Copenhagen的COP15了；虽然本来想去只是想完成Bali的COP13留下的遗憾，但明白过来，遗憾是不能弥补的，所以才叫遗憾。

老爸上次说1月他来吧，是想陪我拍毕业照。Mom excused herself of this, by saying she has to take care of the dog.  Fine, fine.  Wanna go home, but she said there are construction works going on here around the house; would be a better time during the Spring Festival… But dad said he could spend time with me in Shanghai in Xmas – we could drive his car, we could go to the countryside…

想回去又不想回去，也不想浪费了今年留下的唯一可以get out of HK的机会。想过去北方过圣诞，因为想要一个在能看见自己呼出热气的地方，体验陌生的城市和有人能温暖我手的冬季。

Mark Twain said,

“Age is an issue of mind over matter.

   If you don't mind, it doesn't matter.”

Rock on.

2009年11月7日，星期六，是麦克和Yvvone的婚礼。Mike是2007年8月香港联校新疆交流团PolyU的主要contact。是我第一次参加在HK的wedding，也是8月那次，因为要去新疆，而没有去supervisor的婚礼（也是在香港）～

中午便去，观礼，看律师公证两位新人交换戒指，在结婚证书上签字，下午打牌搓麻将，晚上和新疆团友和我们一桩及我们上桩的主席们，和晚宴……鄙人不善用中文作书面描述事件，为避免写成无聊的流水帐，还是用照片说话：

  

小卡和reception签字笔上的小熊都是Mike亲手做的～

Yvvone好漂亮，Mike看上去也成熟好多～

特别喜欢白色背景的那张照片：

Iris也是我们当时新疆团的团友，今天做MC，好漂亮～可以想象她结婚时候的样子了。Iris通过新疆团认识了Keith，两人明年wedding :) 新疆团真是好事多～ 右边和Keith搞笑的合照一张～

 

然后是粉红色的玫瑰系列collage：

 

pro的摄影师好多，我的小Nikon被Richard称为“可以收起来了……”

中午是休闲时间，可以唱k，打麻将，打牌～

晚上的典礼更庄重，还有一声温柔的礼炮。每个来宾都能和Yvvone及Mike合影，并且当场拿到照片～

下面是Thank you卡及喜糖的色彩变奏曲：

菜单～不幸的是有鱼翅～我们新疆团的桌子最high最热闹～

  

除了个人自便、没有敬酒的饭局，还有好玩的有奖问答～本人还有幸答对一题~对于这道“新娘新郎准备何时生BB”的问题，大家都开玩笑的称“上年”或“今晚”……

觉得好开心好温馨，让人突然有了把心解冻的冲动。期间收到Grace的msg，大家相互鼓励和支持。

想起了看到一半的《上海宝贝》，卫慧的描写和叙述仅仅用文字就能达到我照片的效果。她的文字如此刻骨，如此热烈，能够融化人心脏凝结的伤痕，和血管中的血脂……喜欢她的两段话：

“我想自己毕竟才25岁，多年轻，像一张高额信用卡，一切可以先使用着，账到时再结。街上再多的霓虹灯也没有我绚烂夺目，路边银行的自动取钞机也没有我富足。”

“轮船、水波、黑黝黝的草地、刺眼的霓虹、惊人的建筑，这种植根与物质文明基础上的繁华只是城市用以自我陶醉的催情剂，与作为个体生活在其中的我们无关。一场车祸或一场疾病就可以要了我们的命，但城市繁盛而不可抗拒的影子却像星球一样永不停止地转动，生生不息。想到了这一点，让我自觉像蚂蚁一样渺小。”

昨晚一个人在家看新闻，说北京提前一个月，下雪了。Temperature started to drop in HK that night, with cool and fresh wind squeezing into my room.  It is said that warm weather doesn't breed smart brains; it seems now it's time to get down to a real reflection.

Had a dream last night, which was hardly realized as a dream until the next morning when brushing my teeth.  God must be kidding me; I dreamed of you again.  What you said made me smile, and peck on your lips like a small bird.  You murmured sweetly, "What a French kiss." 

It felt warm and unrealistic.  If I believed in God, I would have taken it as if I shouldn't have given up.  Ding said we are all in search of life, our own life, and that we need to deeply believe that we will find what we want in the end and work for that from the intrinsic.  As he encouraged, life is not "elsewhere"; life is HERE for the ones that are ambitious, passionate and positive.

不知不觉工作一周年的anniversary过去了，迎来了十月尾巴的halloween。周六上午，先p颠p颠跑去拿了我的HK driving license，下午做宅女——在家看书睡觉，晚上和蘑菇大美女、S以及从Morgan Goodwin的facebook video看到的他朋友Benjamin Rudick在尖沙咀饕餮。甜品的时候特地点了个“冒烟”的糖水——干冰～

左边蘑菇，旁边是我的米妮耳朵和笑容万分夸张的Ben。大家一会儿可以看到他的其他造型～

酒足饭饱之后，去TST的Culture Center看荷兰人Mart Van de Ven的Cathay Camera Club的照片展。Cathay的古代愿意是中国，Club是香港最主要的English-speaking club之一，里面有很多外国人。我最喜欢Mart的一副女孩脸的特写，并且照片的名字是"validate me as a woman”；也是Mart最喜欢的作品之一；他喜欢的另一幅是Luise的一副近乎裸体的男人和绳子的黑白照，作品的感觉有点像日本的SM。

女孩脸的特写就是左边照片中的那张，近看的震撼力更大～右边是ben扯我Minnie耳朵，说是手感很好-___-b

响应Caroline和丸子的号召，我们进军LKF～在TST等ferry的时候发现香港一个捐血的广告有点搞笑——此男手里的血袋应该换成饮料似乎更合适些。。。

到了central，一路上看到了无数witch，一个超sexy的男扮女装的witch，一群印度人装扮的蓝精灵，不少中国古代冤死女人，两个自制costume的肚皮舞女郎，维尼熊，男人扮的兔女郎，一群清兵，麻将牌，etc…

蘑菇把自己的领结和眼镜借给Ben后，Ben就成了疯狂的math nerd。。。